I hate street harassment and the fact that I was followed tonight is really getting to my soul.

Update

I start my internship on Wednesday. It turns out that our training was extended for some logistical matters, but things turned out okay. Interviewed on Friday, and got word today that I start Wednesday. I’ve been so fortunate to have had all paid internships in the past, so I’m really happy that this is one of them. The experience is great, but the money is just Parmesan cheese on my pizza (yeah, I went there.)
While I was at the keep America Beautiful Cleanup a couple weeks ago, one of the organizer’s husband approached me about an internship. I’m currently staying up-to-date on that one too. I have guaranteed work for the spring, summer, and this new opportunity.

Last Thursday, my friend and I were asked to participate in a round table with Senator Blumenthal (One of CT’s senators), with a focus on reinstating previous effective labor laws, and job readiness programs. I was really honored that I was one of the two chosen to speak on behalf of my peers.

I’m doing the makeup for a theatrical rendition of Monster by Walter Dean Myers. It’s not a glamorous story, so no sparkles. More like, making someone look pale, sickly, inserting a mole, a scar - that sort of thing.

I’m actually sticking to this exercising thing. At first my body was like, “girl, sitchoo ass down and have a twinkie,” (never had one, and don’t plan on it) but I started getting into it again. I play Tennis every chance I get. It’s so sad to see no one using those new courts. They are so…new…and beautiful.

My birthday is coming up, and I dunno, I’m excited. It’s different this time, a good different.

I haven’t always been as aggressive as I should’ve been when opportunities were presented, but I’m truly grateful that I’m able to take advantage of what has been given. I don’t think they could’ve come at a better time.

Peace

Peace to everything
No, not a goodbye
More of an amends
Peace to all the feelings of inadequacy
Utter confusion, and white noise
Time eludes us all, and I don't have much time to..worry
It's always the right time to...live
No, the time is not tomorrow
It's now
No laying on the pillow 'till morning, waiting for the cold side to caress cheekbones
Be still, peace

Scrafs, scarfs, and more scarfs

I really do love scarfs. Especilly scarfs used as head wraps, and muslins. I just love loose fabrics on me. I'm actually looking for lightweight summer-y fabrics.

Thrifting

Earlier, I went thirfting for the first time. I didn't get a lot of things, but what I did buy is lovely. I think what you have to remember when you go thirfting is not to expect too much. I had high expectations. I was a slightly disappointed when I didn't find anything at the first location except a lovely necklace. The second place I found a cool medallion and a lavender cardigan. And the third place, nada. A lot of what I saw looked old, and not the vintage old. There was nothing that I would wear, and if I had any interest in it, it was too small. I'm trying to see if there's any other stores in my area that is geared towards younger people.

So it wasn't a complete disappointment. What I did buy, I like. I wish I could upload pictures, but my laptop doesn't connect to my wireless and you can't upload on an iPad.

Lace DIY

Two days ago, I had a little DIY fun. I bought the black lace top a couple weeks ago, but I put it in the dryer and it shrunk. I didn't want to just leave it in my closet collecting dust, so I decided to attach it to my lace-backed cardigan. It involved a lot of cutting, and measuring, and whatnot. After I took this picture, I realized that I needed to loosen a stitch. And a new camera. My webcam has been through so much, lol. My paid internship is near. Nice things will be mine again.

Where To?

A couple days ago I had a small frenzy attack about the future. I won't call it a panic attack, because it was more of a million things going through my mind. I feel as if educators, family, and friends force us to pick one career interest, focus on it, and block everything else out. That will probably work if you're only interested in one thing, or don't know what you like. Well, it's different for me. I know what I want, and my interests scope a lot of things. I like Journalism. I've been liking Journalism forever, and I used to watch CNN and Christiane Amanpour religiously. I have deep interests in world events and that's the driving force in me wanting to be an International Correspondent. But, the things is, I like cooking, I'm currently focused on law, writing, I like creating things, and I like makeup, among so many other things. Yes, there is an hierarchy when it come to my interests, but I enjoy all these things.

Over the past few months, I feel like others have been trying to say you have to choose. A kinda this or that type of thing. While I know it is hectic to try and do a million things at once. But I don't want to throw anything aside.

What I am going to do now is, be focused and motivated. Be focused on school. Trying to get myself in different circles. Meet new people. And have different experiences. School is definitely annoying but I need it to get me where I want to be.