Big Chop

I know that I've been M.I.A for a very long time now. I never expected this hiatus to be so long. A lot has happened. From starting my job to going on vacation to working on some needed self-improvements. Over the course of these few months I've come to a lot of realizations. Learned a lot and decided to try new things.

Something new that I did was get the Big Chop. This was after more than a year of transitioning back to my natural hair. Inches of my hair have been chopped off, to reveal my natural curls, kinks, and waves. I'm loving it. This is not to say that everyone approved of it. My mother does not like it. I'm hoping that she'll come to like it but I'm starting to convince myself that her harsh opinions shouldn't stop be from appreciating this huge step that I've made.

This is a big change for me. Nevertheless, it's a welcomed one. I'm in the process of finding different styles to experiment with. So, this is the now.

EOTD: Arabian Nights

I like this makeup look because it reminds me of the exaggerated Arabic eye makeup. I did layers of different colors. I loved the pinks and purples. I put the gold into the mix to attract attention to the crease. I had to pack the colors on because pinks and purples are hard to show up on skin, especially brown skin tones. I did a exxagerated cat eyes to add drama. I didn't use my Urban Decay Primer for this one because I finally got it today and I did this look yesterday. I'm so excited to use the UDPP, it's suppose to be the best primer around. I want to do an actual makeup tutorial but I need a tripod and I don't think my camera or webcam video quality is even that great so I'm kinda restricted in that area.

What do you guys think, does anyone want a makeup tutorial? Maybe I'm just tooting my own horn.

Products used:

*Victoria Secret Palette in Closer
*Black Radiance Palette in Desert
*Prestige Kohl Liner
*Black Radiance Liquid Liner
*Maybelline Great Lash Mascara
*Claire's Palette
*VS Primer

OOTD: Shreds and Chains

Today was my last day of school, it's really exciting. My friends and I decided to take an impromtu trip to the park. We basically pranced around like we were two years old. My super cute top is from Forever21. I was actually very surprised that I found something in there that could fit me. It's a shredded see through, lightweight material that has chains links across with a string of faux pearls. I love it. I paired the top with my gray cardigan. My jeans I'm not sure how I feel about them, my thihgs are thick so they fit perfectly around the thigh area but sag a little in the front. I guess because my hips are smaller. I finished the outfit with flat sandals because today was a casual day. What do you guys think? Are you thinking about rocking the shredded look this summer?

Cardigan: Macy's
Shredded Chain T-Shirt:Forever21
Jeans: JCPenney
Faux Silver Embellished Sandals: H&M
Silver Studs: Forever21

Swimsuit Woes: Overcoming Your Fear

Everyone knows the temperature is soaring and with that comes the obligatory trip to the beach, pool, or water park. This is then followed by major anxiety over what should be worn and problem areas that need to be covered. Maybe it's only me but I use to have a major fear of donning a bathing suit. Just the thought of everyone would looking at me would just send me into panic mode.

I remember it vaguely but clearly at the same time, it was 5 years ago at the Six Flags in Massachusetts. Six Flags is a Amusement park/ water park. The place is humongous. Thousands of visitors go through the park daily. I digress but the point is back then I use to have horrible self-esteem. I would constantly compare myself to others. Before I got to the water park I started getting emotional, I saw all the women around and saw how their bodies look compared to mine and I just started crying. I was a blubbering mess. My aunt and cousin looked at me like I had lost my mind. There across from the boat ride, I was almost having a panic attack. My aunt started to console me. She asked me what was wrong and I told her I didn't want to got to the water park. After much more hiccuping and sobbing I finally calmed down. My cousin gave me her pair of lime green shorts, I'll remember it those shorts forever.

Now that I look back at it, I want to be mad at myself but I can't. I was young then. I was a product of mass media who sold images to me that I bought into. Never should anyone breakdown at the water park because they don't feel pretty enough to enjoy themselves like everyone else. Yes it's swimsuit season and yes YOU should go to the beach, pool, water park and enjoy yourself. If you need a bathing suit look around. Eat before you go so you don't become overwhelmed. Know what works for your body. Mix and Match different pieces. Channel your inner fierceness, you know what works for you.

P.S. The first two pictures is me with my bathing suit top from when I went to the SAME water park yesterday. I didn't have a breakdown, I had fun and thought I was hot shit! Old Navy was allowing me to be fierce yesterday.

The second picture is me while I was in DC a few weeks ago. Yes I have a pouch but who gives a damn. The whole get up is from H&M.

Everything is untouched, me in the flesh.

Lack Of Posts

I'm sorry guys I haven't been updating as much. I'm still alive and thanks to everyone who commented and started following me. Mucho love, xoxo. I need to start getting the word out about my blog. To tell the truth I'm kinda hesitant for my friends and family to know about my blog, I mean things I may discuss here when it comes to body image I may not talk about to everyone else. Knowing how some people I know are, they'll probably think oh she thinks she's the shit just because she has a "Fashion Blog." In reality this is just a blog where I discuss beauty, fashion, body image, and make up. This is a representation of the more girly side of me.

Anyways I'm getting off topic, in full I need to publicize my blog more. I hoping that I can do a new make up look in a couple of days. I'm suppose to get a package from Macy's soon with my Urban Decay Primer Potion. I can't wait! Also a outfit post will be coming up also. I've been really busy with school lately. My last final is tomorrow. Once school is done in a few days I'll have time to post more often.

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Neutral with an hint of metallic

Today I got really bored being productive so I decided to do a new look and this is what I got. I really like it. I used my VS primer but I'm still waiting for Urban Decay Primer Potion to get here. So excited. Products used:

Prestige Kohl Eyeliner
Great Lash Mascara in Black
Old eyeshadow pallette laying around
VS Primer

This whole look is pretty inexpensive. The most expensive item is the Victoria Secret primer. This is to show you can use inexpensive makeup and still look good. You just need to know how to apply it.

Put Me In A Dress

I haven't updated in a while, last week I was in Washinton D.C. for a four day mini vacation. I'd just like to say it was freaking epic! The city is amazing. So much to do. There was never a moment where I was bored. We saw all the sights and dined at some really good restaurants. It was pretty good. In these pictures I'm at the Roosevelt Memorial. His memorial has a lot of waterfalls so I thought it was the perfect place to take pictures. The sun was really bright so I'm squinting in one if the pictures.
Note: I really didn't intend to make an outfit post with these pictures so I wasn't camera ready. LOL.

What do you guys think?

Dress: JC Penney
Sandals: My friend's
Bandalino Jacket: Macy's
Nine West Clutch: TJ Maxx
Owl Necklace: Forever 21
Earrings: H&M