One-winged Social Butterfly

One of my self-improvement goals was to be more social. I have no problem going to law offices and talking to different officials, because it's almost mandatory due to my school, but when it comes to socializing with my friends, it feels like so much work.

I have no problem being in a social setting. I converse easily, and don't mind being around a large group of people. I think my problem is the time leading up to the social gathering. I'll be home comfortable, relaxed, and it just seems like so much work getting dressed, confirming plans, and finally executing it. I don't know about other people's friends, but my friends are terribly indecisive. The time I spend trying to get a clear answer on time, location, and dress code is just tiring. After going through all of that, I don't want to go out anymore.

They say if you really want to go somewhere, then you'll go. I don't know. Maybe my love for solitude is preventing me from being social. Or maybe I'm so tired on the weekends that I've convinced myself to just be an herb. Whatver it is, I'm trying to snap out of it. I'm not trying to have events define me, but I'd hate to look back five years from now, and see that I did nothing but read, eat, sleep, and interacted only when it was necessary. I should enjoy my friends and have memorable moments connected with them. I'm just thinking about how I bought an outfit for a local university fashion show last week, and now I have the perfect pencil skirt with the lace detailing on the belt, that is now unworn.

It's past time I snap out of it.